drained.

So this is probably the worst way possible to come back into the blogging arena, but I'm emotionally drained and highly unstable.

That 's completely ridiculous once I type it out and read it.

But it's true.

Today is just one of those days where I feel like everything is falling to pieces. I think I'm back to the point of not knowing what I want to do with my life, and it is scaring me to death. I wish things would go the way I wanted them to, but I guess this is just the Lord's way of teaching me to be grateful for what I have.

I think I need to take a little break from life. Not the "I need a vacation" type of break, but more of a "I need to find myself" type of break. Are those dumb? Finding yourself? I don't even know if I'm really "lost," per se.  I think I just need to take a step back and reevaluate my life, the things I value, and most of all my goals.

And just so you all know where I am on the emotional scale, I just burst into full on sobs because a fictional tv cop died from a stab wound.

I'm tellin ya.

It's rough.